On the final weekend of the first year of the training to becoming a Priestess of Avalon, a dedication ceremony takes place. A ceremony where we dedicate our lives to serve the Goddess as true sisters or brothers of Avalon. I will now share parts of that weekend with you!
The BIG day had finally arrived and I had made the decision to go to Glastonbury even though my baby could be born at any day . I brought the family with me and also everything else I needed in case of having to go to hospital down there to give birth.
It really felt important for me to go and be part of the powerful ceremony with the other sisters and brothers on the course. It felt important to, in that circle of people, dedicate my service to the Goddess. She is truly the source of my existence and all my creative expression and I wanted to commit myself to serve her on a deeper level.
I thought for a while that I was crazy to gamble with my plans of having a peaceful home birth but then I realized that if the baby was to be born in Glastonbury, then that was the wish of the Goddess, or the wish of this soul coming to the world. It is indeed a sacred place to be born or reborn at.
But that did not happen!
What DID happen was this!
In the afternoon we walked up one of the sacred hills i the sunny autumn warmth with our wands that we created at spring equinox. The wand represents our own personal power and creative fire. We sat there overlooking the landscape around us holding our wands to the earth, connecting our power with the Goddess earthly energies. We were all in silence and just listened to Her speak to us about how each of us could serve Her in the best possible way. And She really did speak to me. Words of power that I will always remember. The main theme of Her words was that I must share Her with the world and not keep Her to myself. The world needs Her and I need to help people see and experience Her powers again.
So here I am sharing my experience of Goddess with you to remind you of her presence and support!
The dedication ceremony was happening that night, out in nature, on the holy land of Avalon. As the sun was setting we all gathered dressed in our ceremonial clothes that we had created and gathered for this occasion. Clothes that would empower us to manifest all that we were willing to dedicate to the Goddess as her true sisters or brothers of Avalon.
We went through the veil into the ceremonial space, into the void, led by a drumbeat, and everything that followed the coming 3 or maybe 4 hours was sacred. I can not reveil exactly what we experienced because I do not want to spoil the magic of the ceremony for people who might be taking on this path and do their dedication another year. All I can say is that I felt deeply held in the arms of the Goddess and in the arms of the many Priestesses and Priests who where creating the ceremony for us . At one point I though that it would have been a perfect space to give birth to my baby. I could just relax into the unknown and be held, trusting that everything was taken care of. But this ceremony was for birthing myself into my new mission, into my service to the Goddess. It was wonderful to speak my words of dedication to an embodiment of the Goddess sitting in the circle. I spoke from my heart everything that I will be doing for Her now as a sister of Avalon and she was so happy hear it and gave me a big warm hug!
The power of ceremony struck me once again. A well created ceremony can really bring us into deep heeling and connection to our selves, our souls. It is a container to do deep work with our inner world as well as the outer. Together we are able to hold space for each other to dare to take new steps, to dare to see more of the truth. Magic takes place, time disappears and we feel reborn coming from the ceremony. I thought before I left home that I could just dedicate to the Goddess on my own, that it was between Her and me the dedication happened. But now I realize that it becomes real in a much more powerful way in the precense of a circle of people doing it together. Being witnessed and supported by each other gives it all another level of depth. Also to have all the people there who have walked the path before us, the other Priestesses and Priests, was a big helping hand to step onto the path of being Her servant.
I walked from the ceremony with such an open heart and I really feel how I have dedicated my self deeply to do the things I have now promised to do. And from now on ceremonies are not going to be something I do alone. It will be something I share with others, just like I will keep sharing the Goddess with the world!
One thing I have now dedicated myself to create is a Goddess Temple in my new house in Umeå. And You are all welcome to enjoy this space when it is done. I am sure lots of magic will happen there. In the arms of the Goddess!
But now around the autumn equinox the energy moves more inwards, the darkness embraces us, the dreaming takes place. And I will think of the seeds that I am collecting from this bountiful year. I will write down my dreams, my new ideas and then let them rest and be held in the fertile dark earth until springtime wakes them to life. It feels like a very good time to birth my child. We can spend a lot of time just inside, cuddling under blankets, get to know each other in peace and quiet. I do love the warming colours of autumn, lighting candles, make long phone calls to dear friends, watch good movies and read books. I welcome the rain, wind, and cold to strip me naked and bare like the trees, so that I can be fully open to the new that will arrive with next year.
Below is a picture of the birthing altar that I have created to empower me for birth. Filled with warm fire energy, positive affirmations and flow!
So now I send You all some autumn blessings!